Chp: Reasons for the Gift of a Long Life
"Those who are not familiar with love and whose conscience is not tranquil fear death. And they are the majority! These, when they feel threatened by death because of illness, or age, or any other event, grow fearful, become afflicted, and rebel. They also try, with all their strength and by every means, to avoid it. Futilely, for when the hour is indicated, no precaution is of use to stave death off.
"The hour of death is also right because it is given by God. I alone am the Master of life and death, and if certain means of death, used by man through demoniacal instigation, are not mine, death sentences are always mine, given to remove a soul from excessive earthly torment or to prevent greater sins by that soul.
"Now, observe: the gift of life, of a long life--why may it be given by Me? For two reasons.
"First: because that creature who enjoys it is an enlightened spirit with the mission of being a beacon to other spirits still enshrouded in the mists of materiality. Many of my saints have reached advanced age precisely for this reason. And only I know how they instead long to come to Me.
"Secondly: I give long life to provide the means, all the means, for a formless creature to become formed. Studies, friendships, holy encounters, sorrows, joys, readings, the punishments of wars or illnesses--everything is given by Me to seek to have a soul grow in my Age, which is not like yours. For I mean that growing in my Age means to grow in my Wisdom, and people can be adults in my Age with the age of sons and daughters in yours, or, vice-versa, be puerile in my Age at the age of one hundred in yours. I observe your spirits, and I would like you to become spirits able to walk, speak, and act securely, and not be stammering, tottering, and incapable of acting, like babies!
"This explains my 'Enough' very quickly for creatures whom I find to be adults in Faith, Charity, and Life. A father always wishes to be reunited with his sons and daughters, and, once their education or military service is over, how joyfully he clasps them to his heart! And will your good Father in heaven act differently? No. When He sees that a creature is adult in spirit, He burns with the desire to take the creature with Himself, and if, out of mercy on the people, He sometimes leaves his servants on earth so that they will be a magnet and compass for others, He sometimes does not resist and grants Himself the joy of placing a new star in Heaven with the soul of a saint.
"There are two attractions and two aspirations proceeding from a single agent: Love. The soul, here, where you are, attracts God to itself, and God descends to find his delights alongside the loving creature who lives by Him. The soul aspires to rise so as to be with its God eternally and without veils. God, from the center of his ardor, attracts the soul to Himself, just at the sun attracts the drop of dew, and aspires to have it at his side,, a gem enclosed in his threefold fire which gives Blessedness.
"The upraised arms of the soul encounter the outreaching arms of God, Maria. And when they touch, swiftly graze against each other, it is ecstasy on earth; when they lastingly clasp each other, it is the endless Blessedness of Heaven, of my Heaven, which I created for you, my beloved, and which will give Me a superabundance of joy when it is fulfilled with all my beloved.'
"What an eternal day of measureless joy is ours--for us who love one another: We, Triune God; and you. the sons and daughters of God!
"But those who, unfortunately for them, have not understood my Love, have not given Me their love, have not understood that only one science is useful, that of Love--for them death is fearful. They are afraid. They are even more afraid if they felt they have acted not very well or quite badly.
"The lying mouth of man--for man's mouth rarely tells the truth, so beautiful and blessed, the truth which I, the Son of God and Word of the Father, have taught you to tell at all times--man's lying mouth, to deceive and comfort himself and deceive others, says, 'I have acted and act properly.' But conscience, which stands like a two-sided mirror before your self and before the eye of God, accuses man of not having acted and not acting at all well as he proclaims.
"A great fear thus besieges them: the fear of the judgment of Him for whom man's thoughts, acts, and affections are not hidden. But if you fear Me so much as a Judge, O unfortunate ones, why don't you avoid avoid having Me as a Judge? Why don't you make Me your Father? But if you fear Me, why don't you act according to my orders? Are you unable to listen to Me when I speak to you with the voice of a Father who guides you with a loving hand, hour by hour? But at least obey Me when I speak to you with the voice of a King. It will be less rewarded obedience, on account of being less spontaneous and sweet to my Heart. But it will still be obedience. And why, then, don't you do so?
"Death is inevitable. Blessed are those who arrive at that hour clothed in love to meet the One who is coming. Serene--like the passing away of my earthly father, who experienced no trembling because there was nothing to be reproached in his life--will be their death. Joyful--like the sleep of my Mother, who closed her eyes on earth before a vision of love, for her whole life, which knew no sin, was loving, and She reopened them in Heaven, awakening upon the Heart of God--will be the end of lovers.
"Do you know, my joy, how lovely it will be for you as well? This morning, when I-as-Eucharist was coming, you experienced a quiver of ecstasy because you saw Me giving you Myself. But that is nothing. A little seed of ecstasy tossed into your heart. Just one, so as not to burn you up, for you felt it--you thought you were dying from the emotion. But when the time comes, I will pour out a river of joy, for it will no longer be necessary to maintain your human life, and we shall go off together.
"Courage, a little more pain out of love for your Jesus, and then your Jesus will abolish pain for you to give you Himself, completely, Himself, measureless joy."
In fact, this morning I had such a vivid impression that I was on the verge of crying out. For people shout not only out of fright or pain, but also out of excessive joy. I thought my heart would give way out of joy and that I would die like that, with those still on my tongue.
Peace be with you always